Teresia Ndoti Wambui, better known as Kush Tracey, has revealed she silently battled depression before joining the gospel industry. The ‘huwezi nidandia’ singer’s switch to gospel came as a shock to many.

In an interview at Radio Jambo on Friday, Kush Tracy said:

last year I was super depressed and even got to a point where i was contemplating suicide.

She said her depression came from not having true friends.

She said:

I was in many situationships and friendships which were not helpful because most of them were after my money and fame.

Kush said her mother was never a fan of her secular songs.

She said: “Mama yangu alikuwa ananisisitiza kuwa nyimbo ambazo nilikuwa naimba hazikuwa zinanistahili’

This translates to:

my mother always told me i was singing inappropriate songs.

Kush said her mother helped her get through her darkest days. She said:

my mum would pray for me, encouraged me every single time. She was there for me when I felt like everyone was against me.  

Kush added that she regrets partying too much while she was in the secular industry.

I’ve done and said things that I am not proud of. i regret being the party animal that I was.

She also noted that many of her fans expect her to get rid of her tattoos but she won’t.

I’m not removing MY TATTOOS, GOD LOVED AND ACCEPTED ME THE WAY I AM

She concluded by saying:

i knew i had to change because God has been great to me. I want to use my voice not to drive them away from God, but rather bring them closer to God.

Kush, who now identifies as a gospel artist has released her first gospel songs termed ‘God is on control.’

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